Journal Set#6

Growing up is kind of hardship.

I am losing lots of things while getting lots of.

I changed and changed. Sometimes it's like having the same dreams over and over again. In the dreams, i lost my way. I would have to choose straight-going or to take a turning every cross.

In the dreams, i was hoilding an orange, and there is watermelon on the roadside. i'm going to drop my orange and pick the watermelon? or i will stick to my orange.

It is a world full of hard choices and we happen to be changed by life. It is a world full of questions and we always find the answer eventually after we've lost so much already.

I'm not that shy now. I talk more, share feelings more and laugh more. But am I really happy about it? I cannot tell.

Is some so-called positive changes always good and benefitial? I cannot tell.

There are so many things on the earth that I cannot tell.